Friday, June 10, 2011


Can I just say that I am so flippin blessed by Jesus!!!!

So here is a little back story before I get on to what I am so stoked about:

I use to think and feel that I had to separate myself from non-christians. I felt that if i didn't separate that one, I wouldn't look like a christian, and two I would stumble away from the love of my life, Jesus. I had experience in this. I have stumbled with unbelievers before, and it sucks. So I began to detach, put myself on a pedestal, and just looked at Jesus. 

THE CRAZY THING is that by looking at Jesus he knocked my off my self acquired pedestal. So I began to integrate, to build relationships with, and to love those who believed so differently than me. 

I prayed everyday that HE would shine through, and they would see something different in me, something good. I prayed that when I was lacking HE would still shine through, and they wouldn't notice my crapiness, and above all else I prayed that we would OPEN MY MOUTH to speak about Him.

***Well I went to dinner with some girls last night, and although I was still in conflict with my flesh whether I should be there or not, Jesus totally met me where I was and blessed me.

The ladies told me that there was something different about me, they told me I was so genuinely nice and trust worthy, they said I had happiness that was different than others.... And in turn I was able to tell them it was all about Jesus. I even had the opportunity to talk about Jesus a little on the ride home with one of them =). 

Maybe it doesn't sound like much, [and it was only one sentence] but for me, a person who is extremely private about her faith, it is a gigantic step. one of the many answered prayers......for Jesus to open my mouth...

sow sow sow.  

and He will bring the increase.

<3 <3

Monday, May 23, 2011



Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence for things unseen. (NKJV)

I definitely don't have the greatest faith, or the biggest faith, but Jesus is there filling in my gaps of failure with His grace and mercy. The beautiful thing about faith is that it is not dictated by feelings or even circumstances, it is pure hope for the invisible God to take action in our lives and the lives of others. Through the rough circumstances in our walk with Christ, I pray we hold on to the Truth.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Current events.thoughts.hopes.

Though relationships change, [for better or worse] God remains.

When they change for the worse God is there reminding me what I still have and who I still have in my life, the ones who love me for me, with all my craziness, bearing my burdens. 

Thank you Jesus for grace, because I pretty much suck 99.9% of the time.

I am a hard worker only because Jesus loves me and gives me the strength to get through the day with a smile on my face.

I might not have a high paying job or be in school, but I am happy with where I am in my life, and no one can take that from me.

I strive everyday to love more than the day before, I try my hardest to forgive those who have hurt my heart, and who make harsh judgements about me.

There is a point in your life where you have to leave all the petty crap in the trash and just grow up, because Jesus didn't die so we could hold on to our petty crap, Jesus didnt die so we could hold on to the pain in the past.

look forward. 

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  (Jeremiah 29:11-13, New International Version)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


1 Timothy 4:10

For to this end we toil and strive, because we have our hope set on the living God, who is the savior of all people, especially of those who believe.

It's been a while. Maybe i'll catchup soon........

Saturday, March 12, 2011

New beginnings, and change

There are many things happening in my life, many changes are taking place. With these external happenings also come changes and uprisings within my self. Because I did not work my 50+ hours this week I was left to ponder [The good and the bad]. I am always so consumed with what I can DO to make myself a better person... for God, my Husband, my family and my friends. I feel like I always make a list... ok don't get angry... ok be more patient... and then viola! you will be perfectly pleasing to all of the above.

Unfortunately for me I suck, ha.... The biggest thing I need to remember is that when I focus on Jesus {instead of what I NEED to Do}, everything else in my life fits right. When I focus on Jesus, and meditate on The Word, I am not quick to be angry, I am patient and loving to my family and friends. In the end, I need to pray for ME to be taken out of the equation and just surrender to Him. Because in the end what is this life?  is it about ME? or is is about JESUS?

I think about John the Baptist, His ENTIRE ministry was dedicated to telling people JESUS the Messiah was coming! He pointed to Jesus, and when Jesus came in the spotlight and people saw Jesus, John said "He must increase but I must decrease". John's ministry was complete, and John's Disciples were leaving him and going to Jesus, and was John upset that people weren't following him any more? NO! he had great JOY that they were following Jesus..... because that was his life's work... to point to Jesus so others might be saved...

Please show me how to live for YOU, and NOT for myself....

Keep me in your prayers friends.

<3 <3

Monday, January 31, 2011


This is the second book on my list. I am about a quarter of the way done. This book is a little dryer than Crazy Love,  but its significance is not any less important.  It has alot of facts, which I love, and the scriptural references are great. It in someways reminds me of Case For Christ by Lee Strobel, but bigger.

So far so good.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Book one finished! [Crazy Love]

I finished "Crazy Love" last week-ish (maybe two weeks ago). To say the least it was inspirational. It inspired me to just stop. Stop what? Well, for one to stop hoarding my crap, like my car and purses and electronic gadgets oh and money. The interesting thing is that this is not a new idea for me, I have seriously struggled with the love of all of the above for the past couple years, I have been filling my life with more of the above crap than with the truth and restoration of Jesus. MAN the enemy is a sneaky little twerp. I thought I was such a "good" christian but the fact of the matter was I was slowly being choked by the cares and the crap of this world.

The entire book was scripture based, I loved how I could go into The Word and CHECK for myself if what Chan was saying was true. Some of his words are brass... but not without truth, and sometimes the truth hurts. Jesus never promised us that this life would be easy, and He sure did not promise that following Him would be easy. Its so incredibly hard for me most of the time... and i'm praying that He works in me what He wants for me to do, and I pray I have the strength to say yes to Him when He prompts me to act.

<3 <3